Day 361 - Dreading

I am dreading having to go back to Salt Lake City....already.

I have truly had the best time being back home...and it's only been 5 days. It has gone by so fast. I have several more days to go, but I just wish I could figure out how to stop time...or at least slow it down.

Allie has been doing some growing up these past few days and I just can't see how I am going to fly back and leave her for another 2 weeks.

Early on, before I decided to take this job in Utah, I promised myself and Brad that I would make it as long as I needed out in Utah on my own - until this house sold and we could be together as a family that was financially whole. One month of being without Allie made me decide I had to break that promise.

I was at Target yesterday and saw a locket that said, Mother Daughter Friendship. Allie - this little being - has stolen my heart and my existence. She defines who I am and I am utterly lost without her. I am no one, I am nothing. I tried to wander around Utah as this nothing without her and Brad and I just CAN'T do it. I have soaked her up as much as humanly possible and it still isn't enough.

I was initially worried that Allie wouldn't remember me when I got back, but being back has made me realize that she will never forget me. She has hugged on me and loved on me so much in my time back that I KNOW she missed me. I KNOW she loves me as much as I love her. I KNOW that we have a bond between us that will never be broken.

Mothers and Daughters - there is no stronger bond. Whether you realize now, 1 year from now or 10 years from now, there will always be that connection.

Today's photo is another that I highjacked from Bana. I can't seem to put Allie down long enough to break out the camera...