Day 212 - Happy Mother's Day to me

My first official Mother's Day -

A day no different than any other for the past 7 months or so.

It took me becoming a mother to understand my own mother.

Trivial things that used to upset me, bother me, make me cry mean no more now that I have this beautiful being in my world. I would sacrifice my world to make things right for Allie, to never have her experience sadness or hurt.

I never understood how my mom did the things that she did for me, for my brothers. Now I understand. There are no words to describe it - just pure emotion, feeling, love.

Things like work, like taking out the garbage, like getting the house cleaned - all trivial, all just things.

Being a mom never stops - being in love never grows old, only stronger. For my mom to be here with me after 31 years of my life - means the world to me. I will never be able to tell her, explain to her that I get it. Her children are the center of her world, she has given us her life, her world so that we can create our own - I get it. I get it to the core of my being.

To be able to let her see her granddaughter grow and become is the only gift I'll ever be able to give her that would even amount to a fraction of what she has given me - is still not enough.

I don't know how I'll ever repay her, how to ever thank her. This Mother's Day wasn't about me being a mother for the first time - it was about me understanding what a mother's love is all about. Really. A Mother's Love. I don't celebrate today for me - I celebrate it for the woman that has given to me - Everything.

I love you, Mom. I thank God everyday that you are here with me and that we can enjoy each other while we have the time.

Happy Mother's Day Mom!