Day 146 - How do you make your heart grow?

There is nothing in the world that will change your heart and soul like becoming a mother. Before I got pregnant, I used to ask all my friends that had kids about their experiences and their journey to parenthood. I tried to soak up as much as I could to understand what motherhood was all about. I read books, I researched the internet and I listened to so many stories. BUT NOTHING will ever be able to do justice to the actual experience of watching your own baby grow from this tiny peanut on an ultrasound printout to this being with her own personality. I love, love, love watching Allie develop into this tiny person with her own quirks and attitude. I love watching her discover things so simple - like her hands, fingers and feet. Watch her experience new tastes and pretend to chew her cereal, although she has no teeth, just to mimic us when she watches us eat. I feel like my heart might explode and I can't figure out what to do with all of this love. I can't figure out how I am going to deal with the fact that she is growing so fast and that I already miss her tiny newborn needs, but then again, can't wait for her to get older to experience new things. It's such a double edged sword, this motherhood thing. I thank God everyday that he has blessed me with such a perfect bundle of joy and don't know what I've done to deserve such a miracle in my life. Allie has put so many things in my life into perspective. I used to stress out about work and get bent out of shape if something didn't go right at work. Now - I go with the flow and if something doesn't go the way I think it should...oh well - I have something else at home that is more important and bigger than this job, than my problems, than me! My ultimate question now is, how do you make your heart grow to make room for other stuff? I guess that is something that I will continue to wonder about until baby #2 decides to roll around and will have to experience it like I had to experience Allie to understand.