Day 186 - I miss you, I miss you, I miss you...

Dear Allie,

Greetings from Saratoga Springs, NY. I had to leave you this morning for work and I'll be away for a few days. Please don't forget me. I am your mother...you know, the one that feeds you. I won't be there to take care of the after bath time, play with you, take pictures of you or put you down for the evening. I also won't be greeting you in the morning with smiles - you're Mammaw and Dad will be filling in for me.

Don't think that I won't be thinking and obsessing over you every step of my travels, though - I am constantly thinking about you and missing you. Every time I see a baby in the airport and on the plane, I can't help but pull out my phone and look at pictures of you and smile. I can't help but talk about you to the stranger sitting next to me on the flight and I can't help but think about how much I miss you as I'm sitting in a bathroom stall in the airport pumping! I even tried to finding a flight home on Thursday night, but couldn't find one. :-(

I have managed to only call a few times to hear you babble and giggle into the phone and it makes my heart flip upside down to know that I won't be able to see your chubby little face until Friday. Your dad managed to send me a picture today so that I wouldn't be too sad.

I can see your daddy's foot in the picture and it makes me miss him too...a little...but I miss you VERY VERY much! Mammaw said that you even tried apple juice for the first time today (diluted with water obviously) and that you have been babbling her to death! I hope that you're trying to tell her that you miss me!

I will call you tomorrow to say hello and hope that your dad will send me another picture so you don't grow up too much in the next few days while I'm gone. If you start crawling while I'm gone, I'll be PISSED! So, please wait! Thanks!

Love, Always & Forever,

Mom