Day 36 - Go VOLS!

I got up super early this morning to drive my mom to Atlanta to head out to San Diego for a month. I woke up to find my mom, already awake and tending to Allie as usual. It was a little bittersweet because my mom was excited to go visit her friend, but I could totally tell that she was very worried about leaving Allie...and the fact that she said, "I'm worried about leaving Allie and you guys!"

We were leaving Brad and Allie home again to fend for themselves and I was a bit worried about that. I don't like waking Brad up or disturbing him while he sleeps so the fact that I had to set him up to get up with Allie first thing that morning bothered me for some reason. Brad didn't mind - I'm sure he was happy to - but I guess it's just that mother part of me that wants to be the one to get up with her...and feed her.

So we slipped out the door and headed out. I walked mom to her gate in Atlanta and waited with her until she boarded the plane. I left the airport and felt strange...

I felt strange because (and if there are any men reading this posting - this is a little TMI) my shirt was wet. Why was my shirt wet? Because it had been almost 4 hours since I had last nursed and I had not pumped since. I brought extra padding, but it was in the car...and I don't think it would have helped. It was like a river had been unleashed in my shirt...no, no - a dam was starting to break and the river was seeping over the edges! AND IT FELT LIKE IT TOO!!! I didn't even want to put my seat belt on because it hurt so much!

So - lesson learned - I will never go that long with out some sort of "release." I sped home and two hours later with a soaked shirt - I was finally home and could feed Allie!

When I got home - Brad was fast asleep on the couch with Allie in her Boppy lounger asleep - and just as I was walking past them, Allie looked up at me...she happened to wake up the exact time I got home - and I didn't even try to wake her up! Brad continued to sleep for most of the day and I suddenly felt a wave of emotion wash over me - anxiety - there you are! I was waiting on you! Yup - suddenly I felt the overwhelming responsibility of this baby - not that I didn't have it before - but I had my mom here to help - now - it was just me.

To be honest - I kicked that responsibility's ass! We had a great day and evening. Allie and the schedule have fallen into place and she is a little more predictable. Her routine fell into place and all was good!

We even watched the Tennesse football game! Even though they lost - Allie was decked out in her UT gear to cheer on her football team!!!

Go VOLS!

Allie was upset when she found out they lost!!